you're across the universe.

i still think about you. all the time. but i talk about you less. and i know one day i won't think of you at all.
when i hear this song, it reminds me of being years younger. holding my mom while she cried. holding on to her belly like i could hold her there, in my universe, just long enough to let her know how much i love her and make her realize that nothing else out there mattered. but like they say, things take forever to travel through the universe. at least it's finally reaching her now.
i know that even with all that hate you have inside of you, you still miss me too. i can feel it. and just like i always have, i wish i could hold you and make it go away. make it all feel better. but it's not my job anymore. i guess it never really was.
and i just don't feel sad or angry or anything over you anymore. just silly. just empty in the best way possible.
i hope in 10 years, if we run into each other, you will be happy.
and i mean it.
but for now, goodbye goodbye goodbye.