good lord.

i don't know what i was thinking. fooling myself into thinking i was in love. i wasn't. and i knew i wasn't. but i just wanted so badly to stop being alone. being alone is getting to the point where it is pretty horrifying. and it has barely been six months.
i just want to scream all the time. and never ever stop. everyone is running around in my head. i just want to cry but i don't think i know how to anymore.
i feel like my whole body is straining to make it through each day. like everything inside of me is so tight and wound up. i can't let it out.

ojffneojfnrr.
how do i get it out??